Summer in Review


first day of school (work) for mama!

Summer is over, and I am back to work (shh, no I’m not blogging from my desk when I should be putting together packets for the beginning of school). I decided that I was going to handle this transition differently than others, that I wouldn’t begin thinking or talking about it ahead of time. I have noticed my tendency to process, re-process, and then OVER-PROCESS impending transitions, and that actually contributes to my increased anxiety. So this time I ignored the transition. Maybe it was denial, or maybe it was really awesome coping, I’m not quite sure. And while last night I had a touch of restless sleeping, I’m going to chalk it up to that rascally 20 month old lying next to me.

To allay the back-to-work-mama guilt that started to spin my wheels around 5pm (all those ‘but I should have done this’ or ‘is it going to be hard for Potamus to go to daycare 4 days from only 2 days?’ thoughts, I decided to focus on what I HAD accomplished this summer. And it turns out that I was a pretty freaking amazing mom in the past 3 months of summer:

  • Road trip to Cannon Beach
  • no less than 6 trips to the zoo
  • no less than 5 trips to KidsQuest Museum
  • Road trip to Cama Beach State Park
  • Road trip to Eastern Washington
  • Splash park shenanigans
  • Weekly lunch dates (with tot-in-tow) with mom friends
  • Puyallup Fair
  • barbecues with the grandparents
  • splashing in our backyard ‘pool’
  • endless bubble blowing excursions
  • lunch dates to Panera
  • driving around listening to Macklemore to get Potamus to take a nap

I mean, the list could go on and on. Where I failed, in my grumpy attitude toward my husband, and resenting him working 3 jobs, I also excelled in rolling with the punches in a lot of cases I re-defined my identity as a summertime-stay-at-home-mom, and am now back to work, and I will miss out on certain aspects of life with Potamus, but I will also gain a lot, as well. I’m trying to focus on what I did, the moments we snuggled, and the experiences of him hugging me voluntarily for the first time, how I’ve really gotten to see him develop into a funny little person with a personality as big as the moon, and a sense of humor to rival any tv comedian. It was a good summer. Yes it was hard, but, like labor, I remember all the good parts, all the love I felt, in betwen all the sandwich making, diaper changing, tantrum avoiding messes. In wistful moments I think of how much of a sweet baby he was at the beginning of the summer, and how a ‘short’ three months has turned him in to quite the ‘little man’ toddler. Sigh. Those hugs he gives me, though…I mean, that’s gold.

How have you helped yourself navigate tricky transitions? Tips for staying sane?

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3 Comments

    • I know, I sometimes think that it’d be magical if he was just working 1 job. And that will happen after football season (he’s an official) and then he’ll just be working his regular old accounting job. I told him next year he can’t work for the Mariners and be a football official. I can handle an extra few weeks working 2 jobs, but we need to be more of a family. I’ve felt like not only a stay at home mom, but a single mom, too, which is exhausting.

      It’s hard to focus on what I did and not what I wanted to do but didn’t get to. Because I think if the summer in a whole was remembered it’d be a really beautiful and fun thing.

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