The First Doctor Appointment

The problem with expectations is that I often don’t realize I have expectations until I find myself disappointed and then I go back to the experience and say to myself  ‘what was it I wanted that I didn’t get out of that experience?’

After 3 weeks of waiting, my first appointment, right at about 8 weeks along, came last Friday. I managed to make room in my new work schedule and headed over to our local medical group attached to the hopsital that we are considering for our delivery.

What I wasn’t prepared for, was how medical  it all felt. While I know that I am only 8 weeks along, and babyboof is only the size of a kidney bean, the appointment consisted of drawing 118 vials of blood ( a total exaggeration, and I don’t dislike giving blood), being asked a handful of questions about whether Boof beats me or has sex with men, and then I was handed poorly photocopied packet of ‘good information’ about medications to not take, a birth plan outline, and some hotline numbers…as well as a worksheet for us to figure out whether we could pay the doctor fees at the end of the delivery. It made me think that if this is how pregnancy is treated, no wonder teenagers or young women feel overwhelmed and get an abortion when they otherwise could probably be really good moms.

So what to do? Continue on with this Ob’s office, switch to a different Ob or change routes altogether?

Cognitively Pregnant

I wake up every morning and out of habit I take my basal body temperature. Yep, still pregnant.
I do this out of habit, from when I was learning about my own fertility, but also because it reminds me that I am still pregnant.

Because if I didn’t chart my temperature every day I would worry that something had gone terribly wrong inside my body, and that baby had someone left me. While I’m certainly not complaining at all, I have heard horror stories of pregnancy symptoms that leave women hugging the toilet or curled up in bed sucking their thumb. I, so far, have not accrued any symptoms AT ALL. Oh sure there was a little boob tenderness at first, and some peeing every 2 hours (not abnormal to my non-preggo body, though, let’s be honest), and some initial light cravings for oranges. Overall, nothing, except my elevated temperature, screams “I’M PREGNANT!”

So, I’m staying curious about this whole process happening inside of my body. But, for now, I am happy with being cognitively pregnant 🙂